Integral Assessment

In practicing universal loving kindness I found that 10 minutes is a very long time to repeat a phrase. I was not able to complete the full time. While doing this exercise I became bored and was not feeling anything, so I stopped. This may have something to do with that I was tired at that time. In my integral assessment I have decided to focus on psycho spiritual development. I have chosen this area because I need to develop the cognitive level. Even before taking this class I have had an overwhelming need to find purpose, meaning, and fulfillment of life. I feel that I have been so busy listening to the useless chatter in my mind that I have not been able to still my mind and listen to what is important. Using the subtle mind exercise will help me quiet my mind and access into a deeper level. I think if I stopped and listen to my inner self I may find my purpose. I know one aspect of human purpose is helping one another. I try to give and help others as much as I can but what I have discovered is that I have not given the loving kindness to myself. I think practicing this from the start of the exercise will help me with this development. It almost seems like I was practicing loving kindness but skipped the first part of it. My hope is by focusing in this area of development I will be able to develop my sense of self and progress into other areas of development.